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Thursday, July 4, 2013

Endurance

Waiting... I never really enjoyed waiting. I admit, I use to be better at it too. I remember people use to say "Denise, you have the patience of a saint." Just words, but I must have been given a great gift of patience. I have to work harder now at Patience, because I feel I lack something, Endurance...  I get anxious now waiting. I feel like I do not have the strength to wait things out.

When you have a child with refractory epilepsy, so much waiting is required. No matter how much patience you think you have, watching your child have a seizure will make you feel like you do not have the endurance to go on...
You start this medicine with so much hope that it will make the seizures stop. It does, for a while and another is added when things get out of control...               On and on this process goes...

 Finally one day the Dr. says, this may be the best we get. We did the VNS surgery for this reason. The medications tend to help Brynn honeymoon for a time, but once again his body just gets use to it or learns how to seize despite the medication. So, we did the surgery with the hope that he would do better than the one third chance of a 50% reduction in seizures.... and we wait... and wait... Did you know that in training for endurance, you could end up with a negative impact on strength if you do not also practice resistance training. Waiting in faith is like training and without prayer we too would end up weak. The boys and I pray every night for Brynn and all the children and adults we know that have seizures to not have seizures anymore. We praise Abba Father that one of them has stopped having seizures and a few others improved! This has encouraged our faith once again and helped me to become stronger... and continue to endure! We weaned one medication and started a new medicine... and waited some more.  And.... Once again, we have a honeymoon! Yes, Brynn is back to baseline and better with the Onfi! He is not having Tonic Clonic the moment and the Tonics and Complex Partials are so much less traumatic! This honeymoon started out great, fizzed out and then came back full force it seems! We are so excited and enjoying this time! We started fund raising to get Brynn a SAMi Seizure Alert Monitor Camera System. Brynn and Brett always being find of Survival Bracelets wanted to make them. So we bought the 550 Parachute cord in fun colors and got to learning! Brynn and Brett like to try, but they haven't mastered the art of making
them... So at present I have made oh about 70 of them!  Saving and Hope to buy him a Recumbent bike soon too! After he had the seizure while riding the bicycle he has been heartbroken that the neuro said no more bike riding. He has only been able to ride his 4-wheeler once so far. The recumbent bike sits low to the ground, has three wheels and in the event he has a seizure while riding at least he will be close to the ground and not fall over... We even had a Lemonade Stand for the first time last Sunday! The boys had so much fun and raised $20 for the SAMi fund!!

So here we are again, waiting... and being patient... Knowing ever still that Abba Father is in complete control... It will be as it will be, in HIS time and only then... Not the easy fun we had hoped for, but you know... at least we are having some fun along the way!!
Ah, indeed...
The longer you wait the better it is!!

Don't Ever Doubt It,
Abba Father Knows ALL!!